thank you all for your support.
I blocked him from FB ages ago and his new lady and a few other people so they can’t look at me either.
I just think if you have a new women you leave the ‘old’ one alone.
I have read loads on trauma bonding, no contact in fact anything I can get my hands on. I also ring the help line and they are fab. I sometimes just get a big frustrated with not knowing if things are tactics or just ‘normal’ things people do, I guess this is what happens when you have been I. A relationship for over ex amount of years. Everyone tells me move on which I am doing but the odd thought or cry I can’t help but do, I’m grieving after all and trying to find me. I said to a friend I loved him and he loved him and neither loved me so now I have to learn to love me
Xx