yes! the same. Hello SarahaD good to see you and happy NY to you.
with-holding (as well as other stuff that i find all too horrible to go into) very much insecure of his sexuality, but strutted around chest puffed out like some sort of lion and loved that analogy. Liked to see himself as a lion and referred to himself as such, but i know how much his sexuality was under question (although he very rarely revealed anything about himself so the bits he did reveal i know were key in his life).
He was terrified of being gay, often called others gay as if it were an insult. Any guy at all that i was talking to, or he noticed danced near me, or i enjoyed as a celeb on tv, were all ‘gay’ apparently, whilst proclaiming what a fair ‘man’ he is and non-judgemental and cool with others’ sexuality, of whatever inclination. Even had me trying to prove his ‘masculinity’ to the most sinister characters amongst his friends, and some of them were really sinister – i do wonder why I never opened my eyes … constantly!