its good you have found talking helps you. Having here is invaluable in so many ways, and different places to go and different perspectives, just so long as they don’t invalid whats happened.
Being with it, the brain can’t help but do something with it. when i read some of the posts on here where women are going through the early stages i realise that i went through that initial stage and i had noone then, I don’t recall having here, or speaking to anyone about it and had no idea what ‘it’ was, but i was also still just acting in survival i think. feeling scared of him in our home even after he’d gone, Jumping at shadows and missing /but not missing, all very odd!
doing whatever works is my way i think, tbh I don’t know how i’m still here; i know that sounds a bit dramatic but i don’t know how i’ve got through really, just ridden the ride, holding on tight maybe, the same way as i hung on through the ordeal of being with him, i don’t know how i did that either 🙁
good for you with the counsellor, hope you find it works well for you
warmest wishes ks xx