Alone, this is a shock for you. Thank you for letting us know. We are all here for you as you go through all your overwhelming emotions. Please keep posting. You are not alone.
Please mind yourself around your family as all their emotions will be running high. And I know that in my family I was ‘the scapegoat’. Ring Women’s Aid if you have the time/energy and/or just keep letting us know how you’re feeling on a daily basis. Gather as much support around you as possible. There’s no need any more to try to cope and get through this on your own.