Can anyone recommend reading material to help me get my recovery moving forward in relation to Monopolisation of perception.
Basically, my belief system has been trashed. For example, even though logically I know it is ok to go out after dark I find that I’m not able to due to conditioning.
I find myself unable to trust my own perceptions of problems, solutions and situations. If I allow myself to consider anything I need to do (even go food shopping) I find myself freezing with indecision and doubt; it is driving me crazy! (Well, crazier 🙄).
I am not aware of any reading material specifically around the monopolisation of perception, but perhaps you would find Evan Stark’s book ‘Coercive Control’ helpful. It is quite an in-depth study into the psychological and emotional side of domestic abuse and may touch on some of the areas you are interested in.
Have you been able to access any counselling at all? The Counselling Directory has details of professionals in your area with experience in domestic abuse, this may also be something to look into.