Confused

[Liquorice]

feeling sick, angry, upset…and so.confused.
Thought I was managing the last few weeks not to bad with him and contact and everything going on athe minute but then a social media post about his family members getting engaged has sent me into a, well i dont even k ow what to call this, or why i. So upset

[Liquorice]

do i miss him, i think i do, but i also feel i hate him and cant stand him around me, why.am i even upset by this, i dont understand. I. So tired of all.of this, tired of ceying, feeling low ,

[survivorabuse]

Hi

I was the same. My ex rang the kids on video chat the other day and I started to miss him, his voice, everything

Then I remembered the times of walking on eggshells, not being able to do what I want etc.

None of us want to go back to how things were.

[Hope123]

It’s really difficult isn’t it? My mind sometimes takes out all the bad and I can only remember the good. And then it even makes the good stuff out to be even better than it was!

Social media doesn’t help. Memories pop up with happy smiling photos. If only the incidents, arguments and behaviour were captured as effectively as reminders of the true reality.

I keep trying to remember the true reality (coming on here helps) but it’s tough.

Keep going!

[Author]

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