You’re not weak, far from it! It takes a strong person to live with abuse. Have you looked into FOG? Fear, obligation and guilt. It’s scary to leave, there’s comfort in living in abuse because it’s what you know, but that doesn’t mean it’s what you want or deserve. He’s probably stolen your confidence too, which makes you think you need his support and you might think you need him because he’s learnt what you want & is promising it – but it’s not real. It’s perfectly normal to take a few times to leave, focus on the life you want for you and baby xx