Hi foolishartist666,
Welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing with us how you feel.
I’m sorry that you’re feeling so low and lonely. It was really strong of you to reach out to some of your old friends, that’s not an easy thing to do. Domestic abuse can be so isolating and if they can understand what you’ve been going through, it will make sense to them why you were absent for a while. I hope you find the forum to be a place where you can share support with others who understand and that that helps you feel less alone with it all.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa