Feeling so low

[Mumofcats]

He’s been ever so nice the last month. It’s Ramadan. Eid is approaching and I’m preparing to celebrate for the kids. But my mind is not there.
I just feel so low.

I feel trapped in this marriage. I don’t want him to be violent or angryof course, but I don’t want him to be nice and all kissy kissy and cuddly etc…

I thought after he’d found out I was seeing someone (please no judgement) that it would finally be over.
But no.

My heart is completely broken. I was so happy when I was with that person. But of course he forced me to end it.

I have no one I can really confide in, no family. Nothing.
Now I just want to be able to move on. Be on my own with the children.
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I was so worried what the pressers would do to my children, I didn’t go through with them.

Of course I regret it now.

Whatever I do, I can’t win.

[Mumofcats]

Orders* not pressers.

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