So this is my first weekend alone since we split and I can see it’s going to be a long one. I have very little planned, my close friends are busy with their own lives and because my circle is so small I don’t have that many people to do things with. I know you’ll all tell me to enjoy this alone time and focus on myself but I really don’t want that, or at least to hear that. I keep thinking about him and what we could be doing…lazy morning in bed, walking the dog, eating out, planning our summer. It all feels hopeless, lonely and sad today. Do I wallow in it or do I need a kick up the backside??xx