i remember learning somewhere, the phrase about eating an elephant, little by little. this resonated with me. i grew up with familial abuse and believed i would not amount to anything. i saw no future for me. how i was treated, was how i expected everyone else to treat me. i met people who did just that, even worse. i believed i was a burden. this took some time to change and it has not been easy. sometimes i relapse and can be hard on myself but i remind myself that it is a part of recovery. however, i also met people whose kindness brought me to tears. i imagine i am still yet to meet such people. the world is no longer a grey place. there are people that understand. i can support those, who have endured like me. i am independent and taking steps, steps that scare me. steps to protect myself and child. to better our lives. this time, a couple of years ago, i would never have imagined myself where i am now. the friends i would gain and lose. the achievements i have made.
sending positivity to all of you *