Had enough

[Sogo1234]

I think I’m finally getting ready to move towards leaving. I do feel like after the last argument there’s been a shift. I’ve just had enough. It is so scary thinking about leaving though, the actual process of getting them out the house, and how my life will look afterwards. I have no real friends. My partner is my only support and he reminds me of that often.

I have chronic health issues and and mobility issues and although my partner has been helpful for the most part I know they will never let me live it down and will always use it against me.

 

We’ve been arguing more recently. One was because they had asked me to set something up in the spare room and I was exhausted and stressed as we were meant to clean the house together that weekend but instead of helping me with that they decided to get drunk so it wasn’t done (as I needed help). I was stressed and made a bit of a fuss about having to tidy the room and it turned into a massive argument. I was called a c*nt, horrible person, insane, etc..

 

The other one was a day when I was in a lot of pain and they made a snarky condescending comment about me not helping with one of the chores. I got upset about it and tried to explain it was insensitive and unnecessary but of course it is all my fault, I’m too sensitive, I shouldn’t react over a comment.

 

Just very much over it. I feel very stuck right now and it’s not the right time to leave but I am really hoping I will get there one day soon. All of the arguing and stress is making my health so much worse.

 

Thank you in advance for reading and for any comments.

[Sad and alone]

Can’t offer advice but want to say you’re not alone. It’s like you’re not allowed to feel stressed about anything; or be upset about something. To be called a c*** is horrid. They say such awful things yet here we are still trundling along in life. You are such a strong person to be able to cope with being treated in such a way. You do not deserve to be treated that way. No one does. We are in the same place. I am seriously detaching from so many parts and things in my life. Things that create ties and prevent us from leaving. I think I am down to one main one left which I cannot break but when it’s gone I hope I find the strength to leave and live a life without criticism and negativity.

Take care, keep posting xx

[Sogo1234]

Sad and alone, thank you so much for your comment. I’m so sorry you are experiencing this too and I’m glad to hear you’re taking steps to cut the ties and make it easier to leave. Whenever I’m ready to leave there’s always something happening that makes it so difficult, if not impossible.

 

I hope we both get away soon xx

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