He has been locked in his x room all day, curtains shut, no sign of life…not the first time. It’s always like that.
All day…the kids are with me. The male role model gentleman from x Domestic Abuse Services came to walk with my son, I felt like asking him to show me what is it like to be a normal man…i obviously didn’t.
I heard so much rubbish this morning…projection. I have even been told I am damaged goods from my childhood…and so much worse stuff…it’s incredible to hear it all.
I sometimes wonder if we will one day find him dead in his x room…hung, overdosed on sleeping tablets, who knows, sometimes he comes out sounding slurred in his speech…
I have to stay strong and detached but I worry one day it may happen. I do check when he is all locked in his room. But today the kids told me he has not even come out for a wee…
So sorry that you have to live in such an environment, Bridget. You’re doing so well to keep being courageous.
It is worrying, but no one can get help for him but himself. He needs to want to be helped and to want to face his demons. And he is responsible for himself- it’s not your job to drag him out of this. If someone doesn’t want robe helped, all others’ efforts are wasted. .💛