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    • #105797

      i want to escape from this living hell.
      of nastiness and control
      i need to get some willpower,
      to climb out of this hole,
      i have two feet
      with which to walk
      i have a mouth
      with which to talk
      but still can’t make the move.
      somehow i have to go
      beforei leave it far too late
      i’m moving far too slow.
      love from gran xx

    • #105809

      Oh Gran! That sums up the feeling of hopelessness I felt before I finally reached out and left.

      Beautifully put 💕

    • #105867
      Wants To Help

      Hi Gran,

      How are you? I have just read some of your past posts and other poems. How have things changed for you lately?

      Poetry used to help me too, I wrote this when I was trapped and had lost the woman I once was.

      I look in to the mirror
      I don’t like what I see
      I don’t like the reflection
      That is looking back at me
      It’s not the girl I used to know
      The spark’s gone from her eyes
      It has to be a stranger
      A stranger in disguise

      When we first met you were so perfect
      And it all just felt so right
      It seemed like fate we were to meet
      And I fell for you that night

      But one year down the line
      You’re not the person that I knew
      Yet despite the way you treat me
      I’m still so in love with you

      But then…

      I look in the mirror
      And I don’t like what I see
      I don’t like the reflection
      That is looking back at me
      That’s not me, it can’t be I
      It’s someone I don’t recognise
      It has to be a stranger
      A stranger in disguise

      This has to end, it can’t go on
      Don’t like the person that I’ve become
      I’m oh so meek and now so shy
      I can’t look people in the eye

      It’s down to you, it’s what you do
      When you beat me black and blue
      How can you do this? Where’s the end?
      You are my lover and my friend

      Can I live like this?
      I know it’s not right
      Do I put up with this?
      I think I might

      But then…

      I look in the mirror
      And I don’t like what I see
      How can I despise so much
      That girl that looks like me
      How will this end, I just don’t know
      It will only end when I’ve the strength to go
      Until then I live my life
      As a stranger in disguise

    • #105912

      Hi Gran

      I just read your poem.
      You do have willpower Gran, you are on here and reaching out.
      You are talking and we hear you.
      Your mind is walking (the first step) and your feet will catch up.
      Thoughts and best wishes to you, please keep sharing.

      Soulsearcher 18

    • #106048

      thank you all for your supportive comments,escapee, i am gladyou have managed to escape,thank you for yourcomments.wanttohelp your poem is amazing i could never write a poem as long as that, i always run out of words after a few lines, most of my poems i write for my late daughter,who i miss more than anything else.but the angry ones are all for my husband, which come into my head after a particularly bad night,writing themdown helps you to offload doesnt it. soulsearcher18, i love those words,”your mind is walking and your feet will catch up” certain phrases like that i try to keep in my head, as inspiration, thank you, lots of love gran xx

    • #106670

      Hello Gran
      I was drawn to the title of your post and would like to send love and compassionate thoughts. I would send some wisdom and advice but Id struggle to. This is partly because I’m still learning from these kind and brave forum members and partly because my sibling bully has rendered me unworthy of any sense of value or personal self-worth but this is your time and space so I’ll hold back on my whingeful words. Love and strength to you.

      To all – I’m in awe of your poetry. Sending love.

    • #111637

      thank you for your comments overwhelmed, i hope things have got easier for you now, i have notbeen on this site for 6 weeks because most of my time is controlled, but i hopefully can add a new poem which i wrote recently.
      waiting for the eruption
      it’s never far away
      one minute life is normal
      then one wrong thing i say
      and the volcano of his mouth
      comes spurting everywhere
      verbal diorhea leaves me in dispair
      and once again i’m desperate
      to hear his words no more
      to permanently leave him
      and quietly shut the door
      for there is venom in his words
      that cuts me to the heart
      and i just want to go away
      and from him be apart.
      love and happiness in the future toeveryone on this site, love granxxx

    • #111648

      I relate to what you are going through. I would describe my house as the House of Horrors.

      You can get out. Reach out and get advice and support.

      You will get there.

      I lost a sister who was in a bad relationship. I miss her and althoygh she died thinking I was very happy I want to get out and move on in her name as well as mine. I am also guardian to her two children.


    • #111650

      Oh gran. Sending much love and many hugs. Your poems are beautiful x

    • #111691

      thank you star,I’m so sorry about your sister. i hope you find happiness in the future.getting out is so much harder than some people think. i know i long to escape but cannot put one foot in front of the other. i feel like he will not cope and will die if i leave and idon’t want his family to blame me, even though they have an ideawhat he’s like, but i feel like ihave been in prison since my teens. i know my our children wont blame me though.when i put a poem on here i feel like i’ve done something out of his control and it gives me a sense of me being in control of something.hunky dory hope you are well, i also love and appreciate your positive comments. love and happiness to you both in the future love granxxx

      • #111695

        Hello Gran how are you? How’d ya feel today? I just popped by to see…if I could help in anyway? I cannot change your future, but offer words I’d say…hope your feeling sure, one day you know? your rights…be free to go, slip quietly through that door! Find the sunshines on you, your pathway lies in wait, follow your heart remember, never is too late! 💞 Wordplay by Hazydayz x

    • #111747

      Hi Gran. I can totally relate to your situation.
      I’ve been with my partner since my teens and wish I had the strength to leave
      Your poetry is beautiful but heartbreaking x
      Hope we somehow manage to get out xx

    • #111786

      hi hazydayz and weeping willow. hazydays i wish i could do as your inspiring verse says but i doubt it now i am well past pension age and dont seem to be able to move, i will probably just keep my marriage vows(till death us do part) i so wish i had left when i was young, it would have saved my kids from a distressing childhood. weeping willow i hope you escape soon love gran x*x

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