28th December 2015 at 12:16 pm #6669MoonParticipant
I’ve been catching up with everyone’s journeys and I feel every ounce of pain for those still stuck and I feel so much hope when I read of life on ‘the other side’
He is back to work today and we have had such a lovely morning so relaxed and am now round friends house and playing games with everyone and no one is being hurt its such lovely family time. We will have to be back before he is home from work as everything isn’t done at home and I don’t want to start him off as soon as he is home.
Feel like I have gone full circle I’m back to trying to please him and make sure everything is perfect and sometimes I don’t even know what I’ve done wrong 😢.
I just can’t seem to fight him anymore I just haven’t got the strength. I feel like everything as its how it is now. I’ve not drunk any alcohol this Christmas to try and keep myself safer, but things hurt more.
I’ve been hurt both inside and out and degraded and emotionally drained.
He has told me some awful things implying that they will happen to me. I just think ‘get on with it then ‘ at least I will be free ! There seems to be nothing he doesn’t do to me !
I want this day to go on forever such a lovely calm safe feeling. My little girl is just being a innocent little girl today, melts my heart . I know the answer to fix this and trust me I’ve been practicing those words just need to find the strength to do it.
At least I survived Christmas and wasn’t as bad as if anticipated so that’s a bonus 😀
28th December 2015 at 1:08 pm #6671Falling SkysParticipant
Si pls you can have a lovely day without him enjoy every moment xx
It’s hard and I will dance to his tune without thinking, it’s a survival technique.
You will become strong enough to break free, make plans and keep safe xx
Here to when happy days are the norm.
Just leaving for my second workout of the day 😊
28th December 2015 at 1:23 pm #6672MoonParticipant
To me my life the norm. But am loving whatever today is. Would love the life my friends have.
I just don’t wanna go back today X
Am impressed you in 2nd workout 😜Xx
28th December 2015 at 5:14 pm #6681Falling SkysParticipant
Lol better than staying indoors. 😉 in one way I should thank him, I’m fitted, stronger and have a better figure than when I was in my twenties xx and it keeps me head clear 😁
Hope the rest of your day went well and that he behaves this evening x
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