Im new here, I’ve been really struggling. I thought he was my soul mate and forever, we had known each other for many years but there hadn’t been an opportunity to be together until (timeframe removed by Moderator) when we declared our love for each other, over the past (timeframe removed by Moderator) things have become abusive emotionally, physically, sexually and I am starting to recognise this now and I feel heartbroken, grief and my confidence is shattered. He always blamed me for things I hadn’t done, violence and having an affair and being inappropriate, which made me question myself. Things got increasingly worse and he caused damage to my home and was abusive. The relationship has ended and the police are being supportive. I am also having treatment for cancer which has also impacted my confidence. My heart feels heavy and my head won’t rest trying to make sense of it all. I have moments of seeing his behaviour as abuse and moments of denial and overwhelming feelings of grief and heartache. I am having therapy and will be having more but I wanted to connect with others who have been through abuse, for peer support