Identity Crisis

[Neueranfang]

It’s been over (detail removed by Moderator) months since I left and despite me continuously rejecting my Ex still to this day and trying to build up a life as a single mum, I am not in a happy place.Far from.I am depressed and the antidepressants don’t seem to help.I don’t drink but there was a recent occasion where I had a drink with other parents and due to the medication and the fact that I didn’t eat much that day, I ended up extremely drunk and humiliated myself in front of everyone and embarrassed my children.This was meant to be an occasion where I would socialise with the other parents when all the years I was with my Ex , I wasn’t allowed to do so and now I ruined it cause I couldn’t control my drink which is not like me but who will believe that.I’m gonna be judged now by the disgraceful woman they saw that day and no one knows what I have been through.I always have to be strong when I don’t have the strength to be strong any longer.I don’t know who I am.I am lonely , my family are abroad and I ruined making friends with other parents now.Has anyone had this experience that they drunk so much unintentionally?I don’t know what it was but it was horrendous

[Mellow]

Don’t be so hard on yourself we all can be foolish sometimes I had got drunk once and not gone to bed in time and humiliated myself in front of my teenage son which my abuser saw as an opportunity to make a mockery of me now I think back to it because he sided with him.he dosent know exactly what goes on and just wants me to do something about the way I’m feeling it’s got to point he keeps out of it a lot.you can easy still talk to them and explain that you didn’t realise you hasent eaten enough it will soon be forgotten about .I have ended my relationship but he’s still around and it plays a lot with my emotions he thinks he’s gods gift and that I won’t let him go and I’m privately laughing at the facriive been talking to another man..it’s hard to stay strong I haven’t been to a g p either and not everyone knows what I’ve been through I tend to only drink at home on my own because I would never want to make a show of myself and I tend to only have one

[Mellow]

Could you find other ways to socialise eg get a job hobby

[Bananaboat]

You’re finding out who you are and what you like, there’s bound to be ups and downs. Don’t be hard on yourself, if they are talking about you negatively then they aren’t your people. Could you invite a small group or the odd person to your house or the park with kids instead? Baby steps.

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