I’m just bored with his predictable behaviour

[KIP.]

All those years of being terrified and triggered and brain washed and controlled by fear and guilt. Now his behaviour is just boring and predictable. I never thought I’d feel this way. The stages we go through are awful. Breaking that bond where we feel sorry for them, where we feel guilty, while they simply carry on their selfish delusional damaging behaviour. I can even go a day without thinking about him or the abuse so there’s plenty hope for you all. We really are everything without them, they are nothing without us 💕
My favourite quote is from CS Lewis. “You can’t go back and change the beginning but you can start from where you are and change the ending”.
Power to you all 💕

[Bettertimesahead]

Love that quote. And very timely as having a bit of how and why did I waste so much of my life on him moment

[KIP.]

My sister tells me the time I spent with him I was building resilience 🤔

[Same-again]

Like the CS Lewis quote KIP. Just wanted to say thanks for all your lovely and supportive posts & replies.

Funny thing was I was having a mini meltdown – my dealings with the police seem so confusing and frustrating.

Anyways, your post cheered me up – was nearly sending a txt to say forget it (police/prosecution) which I haven’t sent!

Deep breath. x*x

[KIP.]

Deep breath and baby steps

[maddog]

It’s so interesting to get to that point. I feel far less afraid of my ex than I’ve ever felt. When we first met, I believed his sob story. I felt incredibly sorry for him. I still feel incredibly sorry for him. Not for the man he became, but for that tiny little boy who wasn’t wanted. I feel sorry for his current victim. You can’t know these things until you know them. I now see him in the abstract.

Saying that, I’ve asked the police not to speak to him, as with advancing age, he has become increasingly unpredictable and vitriolic

[KIP.]

Yes I don’t think I could be bothered now reporting him again because he’s quite pathetic in his tantrum responses and I just can’t be bothered with him. Yes it’s a kind of abstract feeling. Don’t get me wrong I’ve no doubt what would happen if the two of us were locked in a room so I’m not in denial. But the intensity has gone and there’s nothing really there. It feels good to feel nothing. It feels like a new calm normal. Long may it last.

[Cantmakedecisons]

I hear you and although I’m not quite where you are yet because I’m still terrified it’s predictable.

Stay strong KIP

[Eggshells]

I have a friend who is just paralysed by fear at the moment. It gives him the power he needs to continue to abuse her. I hope she reads this and draws hope from it. I know I do. Personally, I’m struggling to get through the anger and hate at the moment so in a way, he’s still dominating my life. You give me hope that one day, I’ll move past that and really leave him behind. Thank you KIP. xx

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