I’m the trauma

[Ayidaaaaaa]

Is it normal that I don’t want the trauma to fade. I don’t want to forget it. I’m scared to move on.
The trauma in itself is messing with me mentally but thats who I am. I feel like its a part of me. And when its gone i feel like I lose a part of myself.

Everytime I’m meeting a new person I have the urge to trauma dump/tell them what I went through to “warn” them. I did it once and well… it scared them off so now i feel like instead of waiting them to leave once they find out i can just speed up the process.

[Hereforhelp]

Ho again, you say …”The trauma in itself is messing with me mentally but thats who I am”… it isn’t who you are, you have learned ways to Cope and it sounds like you would benefit from The Freedom Programme or other DA courses, to understand your reactions (which are very normal feelings)… have you been in touch with your local Women’s Aid for support? Or your Local Citizens Advice Bureau might be able to signpost you for some support during this time?

HFH ❤️

[Ayidaaaaaa]

Hey again ^^,

I don’t live in the UK and the Women Aids isn’t available in my country.
I went to a free counsellor for victims of sexual assult while waiting for a place in therapy.
The counselling helped me with seeing clear during the justice process but not much with how I can help myself. Still thankful for it though.

I was recently on holidays so I couldn’t do any therapy sessions maybe that’s why I’m acting up again.

Thanks a lot🤍🤍

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