Just feel so alone

[Atsah]

Still going through therapy and therapist is lovely and can talk to her but it’s so difficult.some weeks are harder than others. Really struggling tonight. I have been texting a friend and she is lovely but doesn’t really understand what i am going through.although i am not with him anymore he is still impacting so much on my life.i am getting older and thinking (detail removed by moderator) years of my life has been taken up with this, a long marriage then many years dealing with the aftermath as i put it all away.stuff i am discussing in therapy is so hard to talk about and deal with after each session.then i have to carry on at work as though i am fine.i just think this is it now i will never get rid of him from my head.the worse things family and friends say is u don’t live with him anymore u are free! Don’t think will ever be free of him.i try so hard to see the bright side but he left me with nothing by dragging me through the courts.i struggle with money worries every month whilst he lives in a house with no mortgage etc where is the justice in that.i am lucky to have friends again now but i just feel like i am always moaning on to them about the same old stuff.have friends and family and still feel so alone..thanks for listening sending all the very best to all of you who i know understand so well.

[Toastandchocolate]

It is so unfair.

I feel the loneliness. The money worries. The years of abuse to unravel. I shed a tear alongside you.

[swanlake]

Thinking of you, it’s so hard isn’t it, many years of abuse and many years of recovery.

I have old friends and new ones and volunteering colleagues. I’ve got new hobbies in peer support groups doing wholesome, healing things like yoga and meditation but I still have wobbly times with the aftermath of abuse.

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