Now which is so good. But at times I feel like I’ve been dropped down with a bang…. you come crashing down then. I’m still seeing my counsellor who said I’ve complex trauma having endured 2 abusive relationships. Also grief of my son. My work is going well just doing a couple of days per week as not to over do it. Its great I’m not having my ex on my mind and not being consumed but it feels so different now …the 2 abusive relationships had taken over 2 decades of my life… I feel better but its overwhelming. I’m so proud of myself how I got out of them how amazingly I looked after my son who had a life limiting condition aswell work helps too and I still have some responsibility for my older boys with a special need… I’ve never had this space before always lived on high alert. I can now grieve my son in peace without my ex partner picking away at me and wanting to play mind games etc. It’s a new life…… xx
Calmer is a good word – quiet, just dealing with life not an aggressive nightmare smashing doors, berating, jokes at me, threats, intimidation and threatening around money. That was typical weekend.
This weekend – quiet, calm, gentle in my life with no ex.