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[bluebird28]

I feel like my mental health is getting bad while i wait to get out and we are living separate, i am so wary of him and know he can be in a mood suddenly and really nice  so its hard living like this, i am feeling anxious and feel like screaming and crying but trying to hold it together as i’m struggling with this right now, i don’t know if i have ocd, ptsd, stress, depression or jsut anxiety i am going to need therapy once i’m out, but i am waiting for an assessment with refuge and what if  they say i can’t get out, i am so worried about so much , i have been in this relationship way too long, i left many times went back had no choice now i am defiantly not staying i’m wanting to live my life its just really affecting me an di don’t want to go to the gp as i have a child and worry they will think i can’t care for child, i know i would never harm my child but they may think i’m crazy with saying i have all these things wrong with me, my head is a mess because of him

[BellaBella]

Hello bluebird28,

It’s a horrible time being in limbo and you are so brave for making the decision to leave.

You’re not alone, there are lots of us who have felt exactly the same way. I don’t know if it’s the same with your GP but mine has a mental health nurse who I was referred to after seeking help from the GP and she was amazing. I would hope that if you reach out to your doctor this would be viewed as you doing the very best by your child by making sure you get the help you need to be the best Mum and seen in a positive light.

I can only use myself as an example but I suffer with Complex PTSD, Cognitive Dissonance, anxiety and depression as a result of an abusive relationship, it’s very hard if not impossible to deal with these things alone so getting the right kind of help is really important. I promise you, there is no shame in asking for help.

Therapy is the right way to go too! We can have such a messed up jumble of conflicting thoughts as a result of abuse, I can honestly say that before the abusive relationship I would never have considered needing medication or therapy just to function but I do, and with the right help we can start to unjumble our thoughts and think for ourselves again.

Please don’t wait, you have hit a milestone making the decsion to leave, if you can access support and help now it will make the next steps on your journey more manageable.

Take good care 🙂

[bluebird28]

Thank you bella bella, yes i think your right,its just so hard doing the right thing, i don`t sometimes know what normal is anymore i feel he has controlled me so many years, but will see gp and defiantly need therapy in future to move forward

[BellaBella]

You’re very welcome and it is hard to know what normal is, I have experienced the same so I really do know how you feel. For quite a while after I got out I couldn’t think for myself, only question what he would say or expect me to do because the control had been there for a lot of years.

Good on you for going to the GP 🙂

I also got some fantastic support from an IDVA while waiting for a DA Charity Support worker, who was also amazing and access to free self-referral, therapy who I am still with.

Now is the time to let people help while you learn to be the new you and learn to be able to help yourself again.

Take good care 🙂

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