My brain and my heart are on different pages

[TairnAndarna]

My brain knows a threat to life is not okay.
My heart thinks it’s just words and he wouldn’t go through with it.

My brain knows the pattern is escalating. The statistics of domestic violence tell us it will get worse.

My heart says it was just one argument that got out of hand, and he’d had a drink which made it worse

My brain reads the words I’ve typed and knows they are really bad

My heart feels like there’s so much context missing from them

My brain called the solicitor, changed the locks and hasn’t spoken to him.

My heart is screaming that I’m doing the wrong thing. That this will hurt a man I’ve loved for (time frame removed by moderator). The father of my child.

My brain knows. My brain is making all the choices and signing paperwork and forms and court documents and police statements.
My heart doesn’t know. It’s perfected looking at all the best parts of the last (detail removed by moderator) and put rose tinted glasses on them.

My poor broken heart. Its still stood in a world where my best friend, lover, husband who loves me. But in this one it’s living in a world where he threatened to kill me and I called 999 because I was scared.

[InShock]

It’s as though you read my mind. I went through something similar.

Your heart will catch up. I’m sorry for what you’re going through.

If it helps, remind yourself that someone who loves you wouldn’t make you so scared nor would they threaten you.

[EvenSerpentsShine]

None of the women who get killed and seriously beaten every week thought it was going to happen.
It’s so good that you’re listening to your  brain not your heart.

Thankyou for your post, it was amazing.

[NotYourMaid]

Your brain is amazing!

I admire your brain, and I respect the strength it took for you to follow your brain.

[Chocs]

This is beautiful writing.. brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing

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