Hello Statshine,
It sounds like something is holding you back from making this big step. It us up to you alone to decide if/when you are ready to leave. No one should force or pressure you to do anything you don’t want to.
However, it’s good to hear that you have options, this sounds like a positive opportunity.
Perhaps consider trying to identify what it is that is obstructing you moving forwards? Survivors have many valid and legitimate reasons why leaving feels incredibly difficult, so you are not alone in that.
I hope you are doing okay.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa