18th June 2019 at 9:19 pm #81089
Though I have been out for over twelve months, had no contact, move to a new house, in a different area, no triggers, apart from a slight weight problem life is perfect.
But last night out of nowhere I had a nightmare, my ex and children were in it, the feeling of not being listen too and hopelessness was over whelming. Today I have had flash backs and feeling nervous about leaving my house.
To be honest it has taken me by surprise as it has been so long without anything happening.
Thank you for listening.
18th June 2019 at 9:51 pm #81094fizzylemParticipant
Youve done brilliantly to get this far, achieved a lot. I wonder if you’ve been so busy starting again and now you’ve reached a stand still? So now the emotions and pain are resurfacing? Telling you now is the time to resolve how you feel?
Guess sometimes we try to never look back, but now and again we need to stand still and process what the hell happened xx
18th June 2019 at 10:08 pm #81095
To gain so much I have also lost so much, I thought I would grow old with a loving family.
But now I have a single womans life, which I do enjoy but totally different to how I saw myself.
Maybe thats whats going on now I can grieve.
19th June 2019 at 11:29 am #81115fizzylemParticipant
Sounds like it hey; you lived for a long time with many hopes and dreams of how things would be together; this is not how you imagined life would turn out. But as you’ve said you know it will be ok, but maybe now need to attend to the losses you feel and thus give yourself what you need so you can adjust a bit more – so you can then workout what are your new hopes and dreams from here. Hugs x
20th June 2019 at 4:23 pm #81240
Since vocalising on here I haven’t had any more nightmares or feelings of being inadequate.
20th June 2019 at 4:40 pm #81242AnonymousInactive
Hugs Falling Skys,
Sometimes the memories of things we have experience stay with us – perhaps so that we don’t forget and enter into the same situations again.
Hope you are feeling better
20th June 2019 at 7:24 pm #81260
I am getting there, as time had gone on I was questioning how bad it was so made be in a strange way it was good that I had these nightmares.
Its good that its fades, but as they say less we forget. But it has made me want to be in contact with you survivors as its only people that have been through it can understand it.
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