Hi my beautiful angel… Freedom,
You are so right it does never end and that is life.
There will always be reasons, moments that could pull you back in.
However you need to stay strong, and disconnect from him.
You are not responsible for him, his health, his life.
What you are responsible for is yourself, your own well being, self love, self affection so start focusing on this and not him. All the time you are having thoughts of him it is taking energy away from yourself.
You cannot control his health or the outcome of it
Sending you love and support
Darcy xx