Hello Cantmakedecisions,
I’m so sorry to hear that your examination was triggering and traumatic for you. It is very common to find these experiences extremely uncomfortable after experiencing abuse, so you are not alone. There are some specialist organisations who run medical services for survivors of abuse, such as the My Body Back Project, I wonder if there is anything similar in your area that you might feel more comfortable using in the future?
Thank you for sharing this with us, I’m sure others will be able to offer some support on this too.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa