Hi Laser,
Thank you for sharing with us, and welcome to the forum. I hope you find it a supportive place to be with others who understand about what you are going through. You are doing the right thing by reaching out for support, it is a lot to deal with by yourself.
If you would like to chat to a Women’s Aid Support Worker then our Live Chat service is open every day. They won’t tell you what to do, but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you. You can access the chat service here.
Keep posting when you can.
Best wishes,
Lisa
Forum Moderator