I recently realised at work that I still haven’t got all of my confidence back. After I left I didn’t have a job and got help from the government with a work confidence person. I got a job soon after, which I have been in for a while now. I noticed in a meeting recently I still am not speaking up the way I used to, and realised to my shock that I had only been like this since him. I had more confidence at work before.
I am stunned at how deep his isolation went, and I guess I’m just seeking support and advice on this kind of deep healing that I haven’t seen until later when all seems to be ticking along nicely on the surface.