Skin picking disorder still years on

[Pinkheart]

I’ve had a skin picking disorder for years now. This would be something I’d do throughout my previous abusive relationship and something I still do now even though I’m in a really loving relationship. It seems to be something I do without even realising.
I remember with my previous relationship I would constantly pick at my skin and scratch which would cause bleeding, sores and bruising. I kind of understand now why I did it then, but can’t understand why I still do it now? My current partner is forever telling me to stop picking and scratching. It does upset him and he hates nagging at me, but I just can’t seem to stop. Is it habit? Boredom? I don’t know whether I need professional help. I have had counselling twice. Am I trying to hurt myself to numb past pain or is it me trying to hurt myself so no one else can hurt me. Gosh this sucks!

[nbumblebee]

I self harm. Its something I am so so ashamed of. Why? Well its a control thing and a way of getting out my anger. Im still living with my husband. I think you maybe need to talk to someone it could be that you have things deep down that you have burried and yes you may be happy now but still the memories lie inside of you.

I dont have much advice but please know you are not alone.

X*x

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