Sex = abuse, pain, fear, disfiguration, disrespect, humiliation, patriarchy.
Do not marry , do not carry their children!
We were all educated wrongly!
We need to look after ourselves, earn our own money, go to the university, have nice holidays, drive fast cars, buy beautiful houses, dress as we want, play loud music, celebrate every day and kick the men on the street.
You sound like you’ve been through a truly awful time Ayanna. However, all the things you mentioned in your last paragraph, I believe that with the right man you can have them within a happy relationship. There are good men out there xx