Still hurts so much

[Texas]

I’m finding the recovery and healing process hard today. Logically I know I have been treated appallingly but I still feel hurt, sad and grieving for something that was not real. Hard to get my head around how someone who could be so nice could end up being someone so cruel. I keep having crying episodes, and don’t want to do much or eat much.

Hoping you can give me hope and encouragement

[Chocolatebunnie]

Hi Texas

Sending you a big hug and positivity 🥰

This is you healing, try to remember it’s small steps, baby steps and every second, minute, hour and day that goes by it will get better ❤️‍🩹

Don’t look back but don’t fight how you feel go with it take time out if you can just breath, rest eat well but treat yourself too anything you can do to help yourself feel relaxed.

Taking a walk is a brilliant way to clear your head.

That mr nice you remember is not him and it’s exact why he was nice to keep you hooked. Withdrawal from that is hard but you have got this you’ve been through worse and that was living in survival mode. I didn’t get through this and life is no better now than it was I wish I had stayed strong like you as I will at some point going through it all again I’m sure.

Keep posting

Love CB X

[minimeerkat]

its incredibly difficult when you discover that the person you loved & trusted turns out to be such a monster, evil in fact. in all honesty, this discovery can be quite traumatic due to the immense shock
and its perfectly normal & healthy to actually experience grief even though a partner was abusive
i am finding counselling really helpful so wonder whether something along these lines might be beneficial, so you can talk about & explore all these mixed & painful emotions. it makes such a difference to have that kind of support especially when your feelings are very overwhelming
try & stay as strong as you can. it can & will get easier in time x

[Texas]

Thanksboth

It’s not easy accessing counselling this time of year, but I have managed to get an appointment for next week. I just need to hang in there until then.

[minimeerkat]

its so good to hear that you have managed to access counselling
in the meantime keep posting on the forum as much as you need if it helps. and remember that there is the live chat on this site & an email address
the samaritans are always there, & the mental health helplines eg. re-think mental health & mental health matters
theres also a lovely helpline called familyline who deal with relationship breakdowns
any of these can help you hang in there till next week x

[Eyeswideopen]

Hi sorry you feel this way. I havent posted here in a while but came today as was having these same feelings. He has only been horrible to me since the divorce, and I remember what it was like before so I know I’m better off now, but I just still feel nostalgic and sad for what was lost, and just still find it unbelievable that things turned out this way. We were so loving and good to each other once…
It’s very difficult to reconcile both realities. Hope you are feeling better now x

[Texas]

Hi

Thanks for posting. Today is a new day with a different experience. This time I am wondering if I was the abusive one. Again I need to keep reminding myself this is the continuing effect of the gaslighting. The last hurtful event before I went no contact was he bought me an expensive Christmas present unexpectedly (we were not together so was not expecting a present at all, nor bought him anything, which I did subsequently). He then accused me of using him as a credit card. Logically I know this is not true but I am questioning whether I did or said anything to give this perception, although I know I was never after his money. Not sure if I am making any sense?

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