Still looking for closure

[Door mouse]

Although in my mind things have been put to rest, I know it will never rest good days and bad days, I look at my body and think about the s**t I have been through, I know I will never have that close relation with a partner but instead seek solace with others, I still haven’t anybody in my life where they just pop round and say hi how you doing fancy a cuppa I long for that even just a cuddle in the evening but mind and  body will not let that happen  life’s better with my clothes on I Cherise every moment I think of my duvet and the intimacy I have with it, Pretty sad really how I watch other people have relations I feel quite bitter sometimes about not having friends or family and think how things could have or should have been I have to keep reminding myself Don’t waste your time thinking how others people’s lives are  I am pretty lonely at the moment but have a group to go to A new year and I have joined a gym so that should be fun I entertain myself every now and then at a costa coffee shop still only (number removed by Moderator) months out of refuge still finding things hard though I have in some way found some peace of mind and only hope that life will find its way back to me when I am ready to live again love and respect to the ladies also having a hard time with things

[Lisa]

Hi Door mouse,

It really comes across that, although things are still difficult and you’re feeling lonely right now, you’re taking positive steps to change that, putting yourself out there with the group and the gym. You’re also sounding very self-aware and reflective and challenging negative thoughts you might have. I thought what you said about your intimacy with your duvet was beautiful. If you haven’t already, you might find having a look at the courses on the Bloom website helpful in continuing your healing journey.

Take care and keep posting,
Lisa

[Door mouse]

Thank you, Lisa,

[Firsttimedivorcee]

It’s so difficult to read your message and not wish we could come over for a cuppa. It seems like you’re very lonely and we do that at times. It takes time to get your confidence back and even network and make friends. I’ve just joined an app to meet other women to become friends, I’d recommend you take a look for something and pray for your healing xx

My inbox is always open if you want to talk

[Door mouse]

Thank you for your message I wasn’t really expecting any replies just nice to write something now and then I have been to a few local groups slowly getting to meet people Trust is still a big issue but thank-you I hope your journey is a successful one life is so important now even down to the tiniest treat I treasure every moment of my new freedom I hope the same is for you Thanks

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