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11th June 2022 at 10:47 am #145180WispateaParticipant
Today I am finding it really had not to reach out. I even unblocked him last night hoping (I suppose) he would message. I cannot say much more due to legal proceedings but my determination is starting to wain and I feel myself wanting him even though I know the cycle will start again. I even suggested to legal channels I stop it all!!! I know I am the only one who can stop it but I currently don’t seem to be able to stop the if you apologise now thoughts things will go back to normal and you will know where you stand. Whereas now I don’t know what will happen. I just know he won’t make it easy!!!
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11th June 2022 at 11:23 am #145181PeonyloveParticipant
I feel this Wispatea, not to the same extent of your situation, but the reaching out part. It’s so difficult. The only advice I can offer is to resist, resist, resist and distract yourself. Put your phone away, read a book, go for a walk, anything to break the cycle in your mind. Just do your best, that’s all you can do xx
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11th June 2022 at 2:40 pm #145193WispateaParticipant
I did it I text him. đ we have had a conversation. Now I am beating myself up and regretting it but finding it hard to block him again…
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11th June 2022 at 2:50 pm #145194WispateaParticipant
he was very cold and mean.
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11th June 2022 at 3:50 pm #145199BananaboatParticipant
You canât change the fact you reached out. So the plus side of doing it has been to know heâs not the man you miss but is mean & cold. Back to being strong and moving on xx
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11th June 2022 at 4:21 pm #145206HazydayzParticipant
Wise words Bananaboat đ
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11th June 2022 at 3:31 pm #145195PeonyloveParticipant
Don’t be hard on yourself, it’s very difficult to break the cycle and go no contact. Block him again if he’s being mean to you, you don’t deserve that. But if you can’t, again don’t be hard on yourself. Try to ignore him if you can and walk away. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, it’s horrible. But you deserve better, please believe that. I know it’s hard. We’re all here to support you.
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11th June 2022 at 4:03 pm #145201WispateaParticipant
I just went upstairs determined to block him again but I can’t. I am hopeful I will be stronger later. He ignored my last text but I know his pattern he will answer in a while…and I know eventually he will be nice… its the way it always is. Thank you for listening x*x xxxx
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11th June 2022 at 5:04 pm #145219WispateaParticipant
Thank you. Everyone. I know I need to block him but how do you get over that need/want/craving for them to contact you even though deep down you don’t want it?
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11th June 2022 at 6:45 pm #145224BananaboatParticipant
I love Dr Ramaniâs explanation, it resonated with me so it might help. She said itâs like those grabber machines, or slot machines, even the lottery. You know when you play thereâs a slim chance of winning, but you keep playing in the hope you get the toy/jackpot and they hook you in by showing ppl who have won, or giving a toy once in a while.
Our relationships are the same, the hook is those good times, the promises of holiday/future together – the jackpot. We keep playing even though heâs nasty, ignores us, abused us becauseâŠwell he promised us the jackpot or we won once upon a time so surely we can again.
Maybe give some of her videos on YouTube a watch when youâve got that urge. We know itâs incredibly hard xx
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11th June 2022 at 8:50 pm #145229WispateaParticipant
Thank you. That’s a great explanation. I am watching lots at the moment specifically around the trauma bond. What is crazy is I know all of it but relating it to me is really hard. xx
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11th June 2022 at 10:56 pm #145234BananaboatParticipant
I get it, so much easier to help others than yourself – another sign youâre a lovely person who doesnât deserve this. Donât forget your body is addicted to the relationship too, the highs and lows, the anxiety all release chemicals and youâll be craving them without even realising it. x
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11th June 2022 at 5:08 pm #145220WispateaParticipant
In the past he has always reached out to me and I have been the one to ignore and be mad. This time why is it so different? sorry just writing what pops into my head. I suppose it helps????
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11th June 2022 at 8:43 pm #145226AnonymousInactive
Hi there his doing this to punish you for what he perceives as wrongs you have done to him , so now his reversed it , so you go chasing him , he has the control he thinks , thatâs y as hard as it is now you have to stay strong and not reach out any further to him , try and distract yourself as much as you can , if he does contact you at some point , which he will once he realises your not chasing, then you ignore him and eventually block , you take the control away from him . Itâs all a game , remember that , they are masters of manipulation x
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11th June 2022 at 8:53 pm #145231WispateaParticipant
Hi, this makes so much sense. It’s hard as I haven’t been the one to break it before so kicking myself. He was so cold and so harsh, The complete opposite to what I have been like when I have got the I am sorry, I am doing therapy, thank you for dropping the charges against me. I know its all a game xx
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11th June 2022 at 9:03 pm #145232AnonymousInactive
Yeah itâs so you basically compromise your beliefs, your expectations of whatâs right , so you grovel to him , then itâs game over ! So now you reverse it , you donât reach out , donât block if you are not ready , but donât be suprised if he doesnât do that next as another game to set panic in you , stay strong and ignore , donât be hard on yourself, we all done it , think of it like playing chess , now itâs stalemate lol . His waiting for you to chase him now as he thinks well I done my bit and she ignored me , so now Iâm going to punish her for ignoring me and making me grovel. You do nothing, it donât bother you anymore, let him think x
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11th June 2022 at 9:06 pm #145233AnonymousInactive
This cycle will continue if you allow it , thatâs y you gtta be really strong & break it , this is how the relationship will continue, and tbh who wants to play games in any relationship, but itâs all about point scoring with them , t*t for tat , merry go round !
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11th June 2022 at 11:16 pm #145238WispateaParticipant
Thank you wonderful people. I know what you are saying and yes its exactly what I would say to others but my b****y heart aches… x*x thank you all x*x
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12th June 2022 at 9:30 am #145245WispateaParticipant
Blocked – feel guilty he will use it against me as I do it quite often…
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