6th February 2016 at 12:08 am #9135
I went out tonight with my friends & just felt like I didn’t fit in anymore found myself feeling sad about my ex and almost wanting to go back to the saftey of not facing real life 🙁 I’m home now but just feel so confused about my emotions I thought I would feel different and free but I just feel sad inside & miss his affection is this a normal emotion after living such a controlled life ? x*x
6th February 2016 at 12:49 am #9138Confused123Participant
Think it’s about getting used to actually being allowed to go out , it will get better in time , we were controlled for so well , we need to learn to relax again and enjoy ourselves as your confidence come bk it will get better
6th February 2016 at 2:16 am #9139
Thanks Confused123 for your reply I just hate feeling so up and down xx
6th February 2016 at 4:37 am #9140StarmoonParticipant
I know exactly how you’re feeling… I had the opertunity to go out with friends tonight- my mum offered to babysit. Initially I was excited but anxiety got the better of me. I was scared he’d find out id gone out and started playing over things he’d say to me if I did go out. When we were together it became easier not to go- even though he never directly said I couldn’t, he had a way of making me feel bad about it and arguments escalated. I didn’t make it out in the end tonight. Xx
6th February 2016 at 2:29 pm #9163SavingmyselfParticipant
It will not always feel like that it’s very early days for you
Please be gentle with your self
Big hugs xx
6th February 2016 at 4:02 pm #9174Confused123Participant
See it as part of recovery process as u rediscover yourself, again we will have high and low days again its part of understanding ourselves , its not nice i know
7th February 2016 at 8:14 am #9229SilkyHalideParticipant
I’m finding meditation and “law of attraction” very helpful.
I’m a sceptic really but I pushed myself to keep open minded.
7th February 2016 at 9:34 am #9233Falling SkysParticipant
How brave to go out with friends in the evening. If its any comfort when I went out last (and it wasn’t the drink) I was so stressed I fainted and vomited over myself.
We know we are better off without them but we still miss them when they were at there best.
Reading your topic has given me the strength to go out in the evening again.
8th February 2016 at 2:05 pm #9343
Thank you for all your replies, I think I just need to give myself time I really wanted to feel myself again after getting out and show my friends and family that I am getting back to normal life but it just hasn’t been that easy its the damage your still left with after they’ve gone that makes you realise what they have put you through but I am still going strong I’m back at work and have made no contact even at times where I wanted to because its all you’ve known, I just keep having a word with myself and reminding myself that it will get better in time xx
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