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9th November 2024 at 9:12 pm #172241TexasParticipant
So I am coming up to another time milestone since no contact. Looking back, I can see how much I have grown and changed from the experience. On the positive side, I have more self-belief and I don’t suffer fools gladly any more. On the other side, I am now very wary of new male friends, and sometimes just speaking with them can trigger a memory. I guess in time I will learn to take people as individuals again and assess their integrity as individuals?
When I think of the Devil now, it does seem like it all happened many many years ago, which is good as I am putting it behind me. Unfortunately though the damage does last a long time and I am still rebuilding my life, but all baby steps. When I think of him now, I just think he has some serious issues which he tried to make me somehow responsible for. But it is not, or never was my problem. Sometimes I miss how special and happy I felt in the early days, but I still need to understand and learn that I can make myself feel that way about myself.
So I am still on my journey but I am hopeful for the future.
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9th November 2024 at 10:11 pm #172244Stargazing1Participant
So nice to see you here . I thought I recognised your name . I’m not sure if I chatted with you alot before but I think we engaged a little. Baby steps is a good start . Good to hear you have grown and have more self believe that’s absolutely brilliant. I’m really happy for you ☺️. It’s understandable that you are weary it probably like wearing amour just for protection. Taking that bit of time is a good idea . I suppose for ages we blame ourselves for everything because that’s what we are led to believe. Missing special moments especially those at the beginning are I suppose all part of understanding it all or making sense of it all . I’m really happy to hear you are moving on and pressing on . You got this. Glad you came back to tell everyone how you are doing. I wish you all the best in moving further forward with your life . Take care of yourself and keep being kind to yourself too . Sending king blessings .
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10th November 2024 at 8:47 am #172246TexasParticipant
Thank you for the reply 😀
I am determined to make some good come out of an awful experience, and I find using milestones to reflect on how far I have come really helpful and empowering. The experience has actually set me off on a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance, which am grateful for. I am learning so much.
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11th November 2024 at 11:32 am #172263Stargazing1Participant
Your welcome @Texas , you really are . I am pleased that you are determined to make good out of an awful experience. Hats off to you . I wish you so much more happiness than what you experienced before. I wish you so much luck in your future journey ✨️. Best wishes always ❤️. Please take care of yourself.
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11th November 2024 at 1:37 pm #172267YesicanParticipant
It was lovely to read your post Texas. I think counting milestones is really important. It’s coming up to (detail removed by Moderator) months of No Contact for me and it feels like a huge achievement.
I am so glad that you’re on a journey of self acceptance and self discovery. Me too !
Take care xx
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