Hi leaf
Sorry you’re going through this
What you’re feeling is normal you feel guilty for trying to break away from this relationship but this is part of the cycle.
Research FOG fear obligation guilt if you haven’t already as it explains why you feel as you do.
I think almost everyone on here can relate to how you’re feeling.
Guess what Leaf? you’re doing nothing wrong. You’ve got a little human and you want to protect them. Do everything you can to make a fresh start you deserve it.
I’m trying just now, not the first time either. But I can relate to exactly how you are feeling so you are not alone.
Look after yourself and keep going x