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My exes family never got in touch, they have never even met my child .. there loss

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My mum never liked him, she tried but he showed his true colours very early on i went along with because I was grieving and I was pregnant so quite vulnerable
Yes my mum warmed me, but she needs to understand I told u so is the wrong thing to say, I hope one day have the courage to say some thing x

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I remember this feeling all the time. I did everything I could to keep him happy but it never was good enough no matter how hard I tried, the days he was calm was the days he wanted sex, and after a while i stopped having sex with him.. I doubted myself so much in every aspect as a gf as a mother, sometimes still do to be honest, but I realise that it was just him his voice inside my head making me feel rubbish about my self I still her that voice now with certain things but I know in my heart and mind that all that doubt is him not me,
Never doubt yourself you are a strong woman and deserves so much more than to feel like this!

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Domestic abuse is not just physical,
If u feel like You and your children are u safe and u can’t leave ur partner he best people to ring are them , they can send u I’m the right direction
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Have u considered a refuge? I know it’s not a nice place to be but honestly they help u all so much,
Call the national domestic abuse helpline they can help u and advise. You x

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Thank you for sharing that.
I know one day I will eventually tell her how I feel about it but I just hate confrontation always have even before ex, but like u said said I know it not my fault and i have to remember the fact that despite these comments our relationship is as good as it can be so I should hold on to that I guess,
I’m just sensitive to comments and things and still get triggers even
The healing process is long and hard x

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We have always had very strained relationship we are Both at fault for that. I learn to take most things with a pinch of salt because she is my mum and I love her and to be quite honest after everything despite the odd comment she helped me so much when I left him, but when it comes to the comments as I said it grates on me a bit I will say something eventually but I feel like I’m not ready for that confrontation yet x

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I don’t think so my mum has always been an I’m always right kind of person and likes to point that out. We have never particularly been close we are now but a lot of things where said and done between us two that we don’t discuss any of it so there’s that maybe . I don’t know
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I was banned from caffeine and could only drink flavoured water, I wasn’t allowed to answer back in an archenemy as it was seen as attitude, I had to be home by certain times and could only have a cigarette when he allowed, I also had to go it with baby what ever the weather so he could have peace and quiet because apparently he was the only one allowed a break,
Still now all these years later feel guilty about some things it’s mad when I think about how controlling he was x

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I do have Security though , like alarms and extra locks xx

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Camel, the police wouldn’t do that we’re I live! I’m red flagged just in case he comes a round so they would be there quickly be they best ally fobbed me off when he breached his RO so I don’t trust the police to be honest,?

Happy skies yes I used to sleep with a knife under my pillow also but stopped because of my daughter I didn’t want her to find it if I forgot to move it one day, what is EMDR?

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I have been wth councillors and it never really works, I don’t like the idea of pills to be honest.. I am finding this forum helpful though I do think I need to speak to some one who has actually experienced and survived DV because my last two councillors didn’t seem to understand, they were good I’m not taking that away from them I was able to get a lot of my chest but I found myself not able to talk much about what happened we’re as here I can
Thank you for ur kind words x

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I am so sorry u feel this way too! It’s a horrible feeling isn’t it? I think a big part of me wanted to rush everything after I left my ex I was quite nieve thinking il get over it but it is taking me so long and I don’t think I will all we can do is use it to make us stronger and wiser , not let them take up our energy they don’t deserve it!
We deserve happiness, freedom and the ability to be positive
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I can send u the link if u would like to donate x

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