Hi SunshineRainFlower, I know what u mean, my ex was emotionally, physically and menatally abusive but i still mainly see him as a nice guy, he had his good points and we had loads of really good days out, when we first split up I just wanted to talk to him all the time and be friends but as time has gone on he does things that remind me of who he really is, it’s easy to see them as 2 different people but u deserve one good person rather than not knowing which personality u r going to come home to, I have filled my time by contacting people I have lost touch with, walking, and planning things for me and my children, we always have lots of fun doing free things, taking care of you will help move past those feelings