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29th June 2022 at 4:24 pm #146157CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Wow I just read your post and can relate totally!
I was too afraid to cry because it felt like if I did I wouldn’t stop and lose I would lose complete control. I think it’s a defence mechanism our bodies have to both save our energy for just surviving right now and save us from overwhelming grief.
As the others have said, take your time!
I eventually had some counselling which did help release the emotion slowly in a controlled way. She taught me coping mechanisms and breathing techniques to use when I started to become overwhelmed. In time maybe this is something that can help you?
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29th January 2022 at 12:16 am #137902CantmakedecisonsParticipant
He knows where I live and I move soon but he knows that too.
I think he must have some sort of tracker on me/car. I know I sound crazy when I say that.
I also know by saying his a good father I sound crazy. As part of me leaving I agreed joint custody. I’m ashamed and embarrassed about that but it was needed at the time to just be able to leave.
Apart from calling the police when I needed them albeit reluctantly and when he’s been arrested I haven’t been in contact with services. I was assigned a IDVA but not great.
Thanks TS
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28th January 2022 at 11:50 pm #137899CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Thanks for responding.
Yes awful, I just don’t know what he’ll do next.
It wasn’t at a (detail removed by moderator) . Not sure on CCTV.
I thought I’d sorted it after a period of quietness. I left, he continued but stopped for a while and then it’s started again at another level.
I’m still in rented and financially it’s hard but emotionally it’s killing me. I had to leave the family home, the dog and all my things. I have shared custody with children.
I don’t have anyone close. My friends ans family know we’ve separated but the reasons to them remain unknown. It’s been made very clear I’m not to spill or things will get worse.
Just feeling very alone and exhausted.
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5th November 2021 at 9:27 am #133509CantmakedecisonsParticipant
In the early days I definitely just said yes to avoid being punished. Sometimes the punishment wouldn’t be physical, maybe silence for hours or days. I felt guilty not wanting to but as time went on and the more abusive he became I didn’t feel guilt or anything but fear. By the end he wanted me to say no, to resist and that’s what he enjoyed the most. I had no choice, not even a choice to take the punishment or not. He was going to have sex with me wether I liked it or not and the more terrified I was the more glee he had in his eyes.
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3rd November 2021 at 8:47 pm #133411CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Eggshells right back at ya!
I’m so pleased to read this post, I can sense the excitement for the news house and beginning. You’ve dealt with everything thrown at you with your head heals high. I know the dark says are hard, you’ve taught me how to deal with them too.
Keep smiling and thank you to you as well.x
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25th October 2021 at 9:45 pm #133004CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Guys thanks but I feel there’s too much credit coming my way! It’s not been a pretty journey, I cried all my tears, kept quiet when I really should have accepted the alternative and even contemplated the worse..
I just needed you all to know that whatever your feeling or dealing with it’s possible to feel and deal with another way. It may take a few attempts and practice.
I see some light, I still feel the guilt and shame which I beginning to realise isn’t mine to hold but irrelevant where it comes from I feel it.
Ultimately my it’s our lives that be have to protect, even if there doesn’t seem much to live for. We have a right to breath, to live, to laugh and to build a happy future without fear.
Be yourselves (easier said than done)
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31st August 2021 at 7:17 pm #130808CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Oh Eggshells I’m so sorry I knew you were very excited about this new potential position. It’s is totally unfair!
If you’re avoiding the house, are you keeping safe?
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24th August 2021 at 9:30 pm #130545CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Thank you everyone. Feeling rather nervous 😟
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21st August 2021 at 2:30 pm #130412CantmakedecisonsParticipant
My partner used cameras to monitor me. He would know if someone came into the house or if I have left to go someone.. he would often test me on his return to see if I was truthful. If you gut is telling you something isn’t right then it probably isn’t.
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19th August 2021 at 9:12 pm #130321CantmakedecisonsParticipant
I did this after I left, I needed clarification and reassurance that he hadn’t hurt anyone else. The disclosure only told me what I already knew in relation to myself, as in what I had reported. I didn’t know if to be relived or sad. Was I the one that caused his actions etc etc.
His now starting to date other women and I worry for them! I often think maybe it was just me but in honesty maybe he scared so many that they didn’t feel comfortable reporting!? Either way I know that his a danger and me leaving was the best thing for me and my children.
Just because nothing comes back from asking. Don’t think that’s a reason to stay! There’s so many reasons why it’s not reported abs you feel scared or devalued then your gut instinct is right.. leave him, he doesn’t deserve you xxx
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29th January 2022 at 4:39 pm #137921CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Thanks Iliketea.
I can’t believe I’m still here dealing with this shit. My mental health is rock bottom and it’s difficult to see a future.
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29th January 2022 at 4:38 pm #137920CantmakedecisonsParticipant
What did the police do/say when you reported incidents to them? We’re they just logged or acted upon?
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30th August 2021 at 10:30 am #130745CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Thank you. I still have a younger child and I worry if the impact on them and my older children.
Can I ask you said “other emergency services called the police” what happened?
Also how do you report every breach? 101?
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29th August 2021 at 9:55 pm #130727CantmakedecisonsParticipant
Thank you for responding.. do you have children? What was reporting really like?
I need my life back
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24th August 2021 at 9:37 pm #130547CantmakedecisonsParticipant
I don’t know the difference between IDVA and an ISVA .. they have very similar roles I think
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