Thank you for you message IWMB, everything you have wrote is so totally right. It’s not a comfort blanket at all. I think I just got used to years of living a certain way that you trick your mind into thinking it’s normal when its anything but. I have achieved a lot since we have separated and my daughter is so happy bless her. At the moment with the lockdown he has chosen to not see our daughter which suits me fine. He wants to have her every other weekend once things go back to “normal”. I really do worry especially with his drinking hes currently living with family and one of those people is also an alcoholic so it’s really not a good environment at all. I think I need some legal advice, but I hate rocking the boat and I’m scared of his reaction but I need to know where I stand.