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6th July 2021 at 11:24 pm #128368HelphelphelpParticipant
I too was worried about this, mine came down with huge scratches (detail removed by moderator) and we had had a row, I was so worried he would say I’d done it I asked him how he did it and recorded it so as I had proof. It’s madness what you feel you need to do. X
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17th June 2022 at 7:05 pm #145556HelphelphelpParticipant
Don’t feel a Pratt lol easy to say, as I’m sure if we were all together we would say, we have all thought that about ourself at some stage. I know I have!!!
hahahaaa but it didn’t seem to matter because I was loving someone and that’s not a crime, it’s them who commit that ay?? 😉 xxx -
17th June 2022 at 6:57 pm #145555HelphelphelpParticipant
Glad others understand it, and I’m not mad. Xx
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17th June 2022 at 6:55 pm #145554HelphelphelpParticipant
Ohhh yes it’s all me, I’m the narcissist he says, it’s all very clever, he outwardly eyes up women until I can’t bare to be there.
He puts me down to an old flame, has lied about numerous things and been caught, although a lot of things he said isn’t lying because he didn’t tell me!!!! Ok let’s use the word deceitful.. but I’m disgusting how I don’t like it all, I’m jealous I’m insecure I’m to sensitive, I cause every problem there has ever been.
Funny as he never said I was a narcissist until I said he was, he is a covert.
I’m a bit louder, while he looks like butter wouldn’t melt and comes across as if he couldn’t fight his way out of a paper bag.
But lord I wish they could all see him in action, it’s funny so many people don’t like me but they don’t know me, wonder how that happened. And I hate that, I hate that I’m looked at that way, when it couldn’t be further from the truth.
I can’t even explain what he does, because it’s to clever for me.
My mind can’t work out how much work you must have to put into thinking how your going to keep everyone you know apart, hating each other without actually knowing them. -
17th June 2022 at 1:31 pm #145542HelphelphelpParticipant
Awww thank you, that’s lovely, I’m truly going to try and heal, I still feel upset and care, that’s the hardest part, no one else understands, everyone thinks and says I should hate him, and I know I’m normal terms I should, but if I don’t get it I suppose they won’t, thank you so much for the kind word, 🙏🏼 Xx
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17th June 2022 at 1:25 pm #145541HelphelphelpParticipant
💛💛💛💛xx
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17th June 2022 at 1:24 pm #145540HelphelphelpParticipant
Exactly, we’ll see how I get on shall we xx 😉
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15th June 2022 at 10:05 pm #145449HelphelphelpParticipant
I get what your saying, I’ve just read it again.
Your in control of that so you do it,
I hope you can be strong and not do anything that can happen you, his not worth that. NONE of them are.
Be healthy and strong then you will be healthier in your mind to maybe leave when it suits you xx -
15th June 2022 at 4:47 pm #145433HelphelphelpParticipant
Awww bless your heart, one day, we will all be stronger at some point. Xx
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15th June 2022 at 11:58 am #145416HelphelphelpParticipant
Hey, 😊 I’ve had days of not eating, then when happy I eat, im anxious and my tummy was constantly upset, soon as I woke I’d be in the toilet while anxiety filled my stomach, it causes ulcers in your bowls and tummy in general, mine split into my stomach due to it. And even though the surgeon said other things could cause it he said stress can be a cause, well he has no idea what kind of stress I or we deal with,
We know it’s a massive amount and we know we feel ill because of it.
But I feel we are so used to feeling uneasy or highly aware that we end up taking no notice, as if it’s normal,
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14th June 2022 at 11:59 pm #145398HelphelphelpParticipant
I’ve also had people looking me up on a certain social media that tells you. So think he has a new interest who is wanting to see me, one thing I do hate the thought of is thinking others think it’s me, others think I’m the nasty one, don’t suppose I should care but I’ve been so caring and living that I hate it’s so unfair. X
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14th June 2022 at 11:55 pm #145397HelphelphelpParticipant
Hey Auriel
I stumbled across a book about narcissism a while ago and gaslighting. It blew my mind!!! I never would have believed that there were others like it, and it was exactly what I was going through,
It’s just a shame I loved him so do much and put it out of my mind and made excuses for his behaviour after finding out he had an addiction to something, but reading up it seems a lot narcissists are addicted to this, I hoped that after he went to rehab he would be the man I loved. Apparently not. Very sad. Xx -
14th June 2022 at 11:48 pm #145396HelphelphelpParticipant
Hey 😊 I’ve not even taken in what’s happened to me yet, I’m to scared to look into it, but I do know this is all because of the level of stress I’ve been under, my heart rate would go from 80 ish to 145 in seconds when he blew up for nothing. But started to feel stressed about being upset by something and not being able to air it without him kicking off. And it ending up being way over the top for what I’d actually said.
But I will try and chill myself out and try to smile and enjoy people I’ve not seen for a long time due to being with him. Got lots of other tests and procedures I’ve got to have in the next few weeks and just hope I’ll be ok.
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14th June 2022 at 11:39 pm #145394HelphelphelpParticipant
Hey TW That’s the hardest part, the love I gave him, he gave me love, a lot, but if I said anything that upset or hurt me he would go from 0-100, tell me I’m mad I’m nasty I need help, I’m spiteful and also mock some terrible things I’ve been through. U couldn’t understand how such a nice person could turn so. I also would then turn into a person I didn’t recognise defending myself.
I can’t say what advice I’d give to others on here, as he has treated me with utter contempt over the past few years especially, and I put up with it, it was only when I nearly died that the ambulance asked the person who called them, who my next of kin was and said his name that I managed to shout NO!!!!! He isn’t, and if I’m honest with myself it’s because I don’t think he would have had my best interests at heart. Terrible, I’ve been so close to someone, been so close in all ways to him, I can’t understand it at all. Can’t imagine how life will go so I’ll have to take it a day at a time from now on. Thank you for replying it’s nice to be seen xx -
14th June 2022 at 6:21 pm #145377HelphelphelpParticipant
Hey Auriel, it’s so hard to put yourself first when your trying to show someone you love them, but this happening to me has been a massive eye opener,
It’s still believe it or not upsetting to be away from them for me but I keep telling myself he would have come to me had he given a S&£T about me.
And what is the point of loving someone as much as I loved him if he doesn’t care if I live or die. I went to him to help, for a long long period of time and he has zero care for how ill I’ve been.
I just know that even if I went back I’d always know he doesn’t care, so I will stay away,
Today I even cut him out of a large picture I had, didn’t think I could but after thinking about for 5 mins I chopped it up 😉 hopefully I’ll start to feel even better very soon xx
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