Jfloorkt

[Jfloorkt]

Thank you so much for all your replies. I’ve been reading about trauma bonds and yes, sadly, it does sound very familiar. I feel like a fog is lifting and I’m starting to see more clearly the things he does, the psychological games he plays and how he keeps me on edge because I never know if he’s going to turn on me. I challenged him over something, I told him I was entitled to my own opinion!! That shocked him.

I was such a happy go-lucky, free spirited young woman when I met him, and he promised me the security that deep down I really craved. I feel so bloody stupid for wasting my life with him.

I want to say thank you for believing me, I’ve been told by him many times that I’m mad or I play the victim so I do wonder if it’s something in my personality! Ironically, I’m so often a sympathetic ear for other people, but I’ve never had the courage to tell anyone what goes on in my own life.

I will contact the helpline, I’m financially dependent on him so extricating myself will not be easy, I’ve known that and despaired about that for a long time. i realise also that he will never leave me despite being told that I’m such a poor excuse for a woman.

Lots of love, right back to you all x

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