Mayprice

[Mayprice]

Thank you. Its hard as I’m still living here and I nnever know how each day is going to go.
It does help speaking to people in the same situation as I feel most of the time I am lying to people or making it up.
I feel this black hole of sadness amd despair amd grief that is pulling me in and its hard to breathe. When there are nice bits you think oh everything is OK and it’s just in my head. But then things happen like I was woke up last night by him being aggressive with I don’t know what but he was swearing out loud with horrible words at (detail removed by Moderator) which is what woke me up. I find it scary that someone gets so angry so fast and sometimes at the smallest things. Like with our son he is (detail removed by Moderator) amd if he is being a monkey he can get really frustrated with him amd says he has to vent. But that to me is juts an excuse for not being able to control yourself as an adult as its all the time not just once or twice as we are all human.

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