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Hey all. We are currently still homeless with no means of any help from anywhere. Endless phone calls with promises of call backs that never come. My kids are really unsettled and my youngest keeps crying to go home. Im exhausted as im not sleeping much but hey tomorrows another day 🥹

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Hi all. Just a quick update. So after reaching out to shelter as advised they then safeguarded my children and I was receiving phone calls from childrens services (detail removed by moderator) I absolutely panicked. Iv never been so afraid. They kept telling me how they were going to visit my husband once I had left. I threw everything into bags and box’s as much as I could and left in one day. I am now sleeping on air beds with (detail removed by moderator) children and our belongings scattered around different houses. And obviously not one person has been in touch to check in.
Iv never felt so let down. (Detail removed by moderator).

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Things are just getting worse. It’s now a daily occurrence. Im trying to move some of the kids things into storage so I can just leave. I didn’t want it to be like this but I can’t do it no more. I feel so bad for the kids. It says online I have to contact on the day to see if there’s space. Is this how it works? Or can I speak to them n find out my options? Im struggling to think straight atm but I need to get out as soon as possible 😢

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He just does not stop. I feel so sorry for my children. They do not deserve all this. It’s my fault I should of never came back. I hate how he makes me feel every day. Every day is another argument anther accusation another thing Iv done wrong. I don’t no how my life got to this I really don’t 😭

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Hi Lisa thank you for your reply. Yes I told them I was experiencing domestic abuse. He said there was not much they could do as they have too many applications. I wrote this with tears as I’m so fed up now. Every day is another battle another argument another threat. While he doesn’t hit me I feel so emotionally drained just from the threats. Of cors he’s always sorry the next day. I can’t even get a gp appointment as I feel I seriously need some sort of counciling just someone to listen n tell me I’m not going mad. Why’s it so hard 😢

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I called again. There’s a 2 month waiting list to be assigned a case worker and then the case will start. So another at least 6 months of this crap. Don’t know why I allowed myself to think someone was going to actually help me 😩

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I have been checking daily 3/4 times a day in hope of some sort of miracle. It’s really hard for me to make phone calls and citezen advice said it was one phone call and I’d be over the worst. I am thinking maybe my case won’t be accepted as he doesn’t actually hit me 😩 I feel so disheartened I had really convinced myself I was within reach of getting out x

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Hi all. I’m now finding that because Iv opened up a little bit and people actually believe me and agree with me that his behaviour is no way acceptable, I feel this gives me even more strength to want to leave. I do agree I would not be able to do this alone and all your support and advice has been a massive help. I will forever greatful to all as without all this I actually think I was on the edge of a breakdown.
Although I’m still yet to get a gp appointment which is no surprise really. Hope you are all well too. Sending virtual hugs to you all. Today has been a better day 🙂

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Thank you for your continued reply’s. I’m so grateful of your time and support. I feel I am ready to leave. I have been making a plan and building up things that I need when I move and storing them at family homes. I have reached out to my local woman’s aid today who have been helpful. I’m going to see if I can get access to some counciling. My only move left is to find a place to leave to. I’m planning on just upping and leaving and all child exchange to be done from a family members house. He may put me down and see me broken but deep inside I have so much fight to get out of here. It’s just bringing that willpower out and working around my anxiety. This group has already helped me so much. So thank you all again ❤️

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I have tried to speak to my gp however I am completely unable to get an appointment. I am worried people will suggest a refuge whic would mean taking my children and leaving everything behind. I’m so scared to make the 1st steps though. Although it doesn’t help that I’m so anxious all the time. Also I have no proof. To the world outside he’s the most loveliest man ever. No one sees the side of him that I do. I can’t record him he would just take my phone from me. It’s like every night I go to bed thinking I’m going to sort my life out tomorrow. I get up and can’t face the day again x

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Thank you all again for responses. My head feels like I’m on a ride that won’t let me get off. I shall try to see my GP as soon as I can finally get an appointment. I will also speak to woman’s aid again. I wish I had the confidence to just pick up the phone and call people. It’s so annoying. It literally prevents me from contacting anyone further than a message of email 🤦🏼‍♀️
You have all been so kind. I do really appreciate everyone’s time and advice 😊

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Do you feel as though you don’t know where to start? I feel as though I haven’t got enough head space to help myself as I’m so stressed out with trying to keep up with basic daily life of work and children and his outbursts that I’m too drained and head numb for anything else. Plus people who don’t go through it seem to not fully understand how draining it actually is.
But like you I am not losing this time. I refuse to. Here’s to finding our light 🥰 x

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Morning all. Thank you for your responses. I have close friends and family who are aware of what’s happening but they are unable to help which I totally understand. My husband is aware I am leaving as I (detail removed by moderator). Professional wise no one is aware. I am already taking depression and anxiety medication and have been trying to get a GP appointment to see if I can get some counselling. However, again trying to get an appointment is proving very difficult at present. I think the reason I’m so scared about how I leave is more that I don’t want him to get in trouble. He’s still the father to my children and he’s a good dad. My children love him and I don’t want to take that away from him or them. However 2 of them are old enough to some point to know kind of mommy and daddy will be living in different houses but still love them. I didn’t want it to just hit them like a ton of bricks. So mentally they will be part prepared for when I finally get out. I work full time but I have a minimum wage job. Private renting is so expensive but I have been applying anyway as I know the council are stretched and there are people who need it more. However, I’m literally running out of options and will power. I feel so physically and mentally drained and alone. I feel like I’m constantly hitting dead ends. I think my anxiety to speak to people via telephone doesn’t help because I can’t find the courage to verbally speak to anyone 😩 I’m my own worst enemy.
Thank you again for your kind reply’s

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Hello. I’m also new here. I have been trying to get out since (detail removed by moderator) with no light at the end of the tunnel. I too do not know how you can prove that someone can be so mentally draining and so horrible with words yet still make out your to blame and they are only the way they are because of x amount of reasons. I too am struggling to see where there’s any end to all of this

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Thank you everyone who has took the time to leave a message. They actually bring me comfort knowing I’m not alone.

I also tried to contact live chat for wa today but they were busy (understandably) so I will attempt again tomorrow. I have spoken to my gp but was a telephone appointment n I just broke down and told her I need to leave my home and why. She upped my medication (which isn’t making any difference) and gave me the number for self referral for counciling. However I really struggle to make phone calls. They make me that anxious that I want to throw up (also taking medication for this too) I really hope someone can help me out of here as he’s back to wanting sex again and I really don’t want too 😩 he just does not give up! Xx

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