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Hi everyone/anyone

This is my first post, this is my first time talking about this.

I don’t even know if this is the right place, I don’t know if I’m helping myself or not.

I feel like my partner has changed a lot since I found out I was pregnant. But it has been a very long time the way he is with me.
So I don’t know where to start but here goes;

I’m disabled, I have a lot of chronic and painful conditions. He doesn’t seem to ever want to listen to me, no matter how much I’ve begged, sobbed, broken down and tried to tell him if I’m upset or hurt he doesn’t want to listen, once I was suicidal because I know he doesn’t love me, and he still said what ever I really don’t care. I have had a water infection this week, I’m [detail removed by moderator] weeks pregnant and have severe morning sickness, and looking after my child who is off school. I had to go to the emergency doctor at night because I was ill, I came home and he didn’t care what they’d said or if I was okay. I’ve been so ill I’ve been crying asking for a cuddle or some sympathy but he absolutely refuses any time of the day and I beg him. I have no friends or family. I have no help or support. He woke up and entered me sexually in the middle of the night and when I said something he shoved me and shouted at me even though I cried.

I’m so so so so so upset

I don’t know what to do

I don’t know I tried saying today that he hurt my feelings and he put his hand up and said shut up and walked away.

I asked for a kiss after and he said no I am bad.

My last husband raped and beat me and tried to kill me so I know how it feels to be unloveable.

There is something massively wrong with me no one can love me

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