Onetoomanytimes

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Thank you so much for replying, yes you are completely right. I grew up in an abusive environment I take care of my mum now as a result. My family and friends are incredibly supportive I do talk to them now they all say to  leave/kick him out (I’m worried about were he will live) but at the same time just support which ever I choose but always see the upset and disappointment in there face when I say oh he’s being really nice at the moment.. boom within a week back to it so them I feel embarrassed, being diagnosed cptsd I have off days myself  ( but of course if I mention this I’m just playing victim) I’m not a person to mope I cope and get on with with day to day tasks, but it’s so difficult when coming home to silent treatment, I say the words I am done and then feel guilty. I was in a previous relationship which was violent I got out thank goodness but I’m not sure if the emotional abuse is worse it’s bizarre.

[Onetoomanytimes]

Firstly I am so sorry to hear about your experience it’s an awful thing to go through yet the hardest to get away from phrase to your strength. I know deep down my head is saying the right things but he does a a great way of making me feel I am wrong I have also recognised that I get punished for my reactions to his disrespect. Why are these people so uncommunicative or have no remorse, it’s unbelievable to make someone feel your life is in there hands if we leave or end it they will end their life I find this a difficult one as he has a close family member who did this because they didn’t get there own way so when he says I’m going to be with (detail removed by Moderator) I believe him

[Onetoomanytimes]

Thank you for your replies. Part of me is still attached to him I don’t know why. We haven’t been communicating verbally for (detail removed by Moderator) months or it’s been extremely minimum everything is over text could be up too 50 messages a day and he sends ? Over and over if I don’t answer straight away so I feel awkward if I’m mid convo with someone my brain is telling me to reply so I feel like I’m not even in the convo again I feel guilty to who ever I could be talking to it’s so odd. He tells me he is leaving but never does and gives me the guilt trip. It’s odd he didn’t speak to me when I’m home but as soon as I go out the compulsive texts start sometimes my brain feels likes it’s about to burst out my head. I will make sure it’s a safe environment I’m hoping I’ll be able to move soon

[Onetoomanytimes]

I am beginning to see this and understand that my home is my safe zone, and I must do whatever I can to protect that x

[Onetoomanytimes]

It’s so true absolutely, we have to get off the wheel xx

[Onetoomanytimes]

You are completely right, time and time again I have told myself I am not having children in the environment I grew up in. It would be so wrong, we have the break the cycles or they will never end, I appreciate your message not out of line at all xx

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