Hi, I think it’s incredibly tough disentangling our minds after so many years being condition, gaslighted, controlled and abused. It’s been (detail removed by Moderator) years since I secretly moved out while he was at work. My life is so much better but I still struggle with managing life.
I think they keep their fingers in our mind for a while even after they’re not there anymore. Your feelings will eventually pass, OP, but give them some validity because it’s reasonable to feel like this. Good luck.