True2myself

[True2myself]

Thank you everyone. Sorry just getting to reply now.

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Congratulations 🎊 x

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Thank you. Yeah I trying to go walks just too much happening just now that I don’t feel so safe outside. Its nice to meet you too

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Thank you so much

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Thank you and sorry this happened to you too. Yeah I’m totally isolated. I kinda was anyway cos of my first ex. That was a long marriage. But yeah now I lock my doors again and I stay upstairs so he can’t see me. I’m a mess

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Thank you. I see now I was used the whole time. He also used my past to control me.

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Don’t worry though just get help and supportive ppl like woman’s aid and it will be the best thing you done. Seeing my kids proper laughing just melts my heart and makes it worth it.

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He will find out about my win via a restraining order (detail removed by Moderator)

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Hey I’m sorry, just my experience. He goes through my children now, he wants us out the house, he won’t help financially, he tells them bad things about me, any opportunity to put me down he will. He tries to discourage us from our support system. He has a restraining order so can’t come direct for me. He can get in the house so sometimes I wake up and doors are open.

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It’s still better than being with him. I’ll be real ok, it’s hard but soooo worth it. My children now laugh, a real laugh, not a stressed out laugh. My head is clearer to certain extent. I have severe c-ptsd and struggle but not as bad but I do sometimes think when I was with him I knew the signs and knew what was coming but now I don’t until its too late but I’m telling you this not to scare you but to let you know its normal to feel this way. Each day I get stronger, I’m not quite t there yet cos so got things to sort out but hopefully our future looks great. I took kids on holiday and we bonded which was much needed after being in abuse so long. Longgg marriage it was. Just concentrate on your kids when you’re out and try let lawyers deal with him. I’m learning that, I tried to juggle everything but now I realise I have to just concentrate on kids and let whatever he is doing be on the outside of our happiness 😊

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Thank you. All that made me smile. Just now he is still abusing us but putting that to the side just now…we are living very strange life just now. Can’t have noise, no tvs on, we have to put ear defenders on and scared to go out. Also don’t wanna go out. Lock the door and stay in my bedroom. My children have turned into my parents. They tell me off and things. It’s so hard and I’ve lost All happiness although someone did say some ideas today that might help. I’m just stuck but they say I’m going forward but I don’t think so. He thinks I’m playing games with my lawyer against him, so he’s doing the same. Only thing is I’m doing nothing with lawyer. All in his head. I’m too heartbroken to even try. She is sorting divorce though

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You have no idea how much I need a hug. I’m alone here with my dog and children but the dynamics have changed. So it’s just me and th pressure gets too much. I hear his voice most of the day cos daughter has speaker on. I know it sounds really pathetic but I do need a hug. Just so much evil. I do have good people in my life but they are like professional ppl and some from here. Thank you

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Thank you. You all do so amazing. I don’t post anymore but I’m around. His sentencing isn’t over yet. It’s been split in 2. Will see what happens but at the moment he’s taking everyone in abuser and he’s broken by his trauma blah blah. Just doesn’t end for me. This is our first Christmas without him and I’m wanting to make it really good for children. It’s gonna be weird Christmas without police

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Definitely. Forums and support group keep me going

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❤❤❤

[True2myself]

Thank you so much ❤can’t even begin to explain the huge benefit I’ve had from this forum and the amazing messages.

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