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Hi both,

Yes I did report it to the police. I was concerned about doing that thinking it could make matters worse by aggravating him. I was also worried nobody would believe me because he’s so good at being calm and together in front of everyone else, it’s just me that witnessed his aggressive, controlling side.

You are right Sunshine Rainflower, it sounds exactly the same. Thank you so much for your words and support and offering suggestions. I have been trying to keep busy and take my mind off it but sometimes I find myself just sitting there blankly and not being able to shake the thought of him off.

[ThinkHappyStayHappy]

Hi KIP

Thank you for responding.

I haven’t considered counselling. I don’t know what my options are or what help is out there or how to get any apart from advice here.

It’s quite scary to be in a world full of so many people and feel so alone

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Hi Sunshine Rainflower,

Thank you so much for your response.

I know I’m acting irrational,but at the moment I don’t think I can behave in any other way. I don’t put my bedroom light on in case he drives past and knows I’m home. I get ready in the dark. Constantly checking my phone to make sure no one has called me off a number I don’t recognise. I panic every time I get a message off anybody thinking it will be something to do with him. He controlled me through the relationship and I feel like I’m letting him control me now.

I can’t concentrate on anything and I’m continuously crying. I can’t see it getting any better at the moment.

I’m even more terrified of him now than I was when we were together because now I know exactly what he was doing to me. I was so naive at the time. He made me think everything was my fault I was the cause of every problem.

I have definitely been avoiding places where I know he goes. The thought of bumping into him terrifies me. It’s so sad that he’s out there living his life and I’m unable to go about my everyday life because of what he’s done to me.

Thank you for your suggestions on what to read. It’s reassuring to know I am not the only one to feel this way and there is a chance it might get better.

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